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Four Cantos


i. schizophrenic canto

in the quest of discovering
who I am
it is important to note
that I’m slightly less
than the sum of my two halves
the two hemispheres of my brain
exist in rapporto simbiotico

they share residence
in my oblong cranium
fraternal twins
with little in common
and seldom in agreement

my romantic mind
resides in eastern hemisphere
painting dazzling oils
in vibrant colours
of idyllic dreamscapes
where I am hero
to all who seek my heroism

my rational mind
lying parallel
taking potshots
blowing vast holes
unrelenting
unrepentant
common sense
into even the tawdriest
of my unfulfilled dreams

key to equalizing
my mania
with my depression
is the tolerance
which allows romance to dream
while reality sits idly by
waiting to clean up
telltale signs of
my destructive irrationality
in my fantastical fantasies of you…

ii tropical forest canto

I have dreams
of lush forests
meandering streams of rainwater
and bananas fresh off the tree
for breakfast at sunrise

you and I run naked
through our unspoiled eden
our fat little babies
playing symphonies
with the vocal instruments
of their musical laughter

midmorning
I teach our youngest
to swim in the pond
that lies at the base
of our waterfall

she giggles
at the slick touch
of the shimmering iridescent fish
as they swim
between her chubby little legs

happily exhausted
we recline
in the bright clean sunshine
of an ozone protected atmosphere
beads of water drying on our skin
in the light breeze

you are using a sliver of bamboo
that was downed
in the torrents of rain last night
to cut slices of pulpy mango
creamy avocado and crunchy chilis
for our lunch
on a bed of dew soaked spinach

sated
we lie down with our babies
naked to the world
and sleep

rain comes as always in the tropics
mid afternoon
first heavy droplets
steady torrents
horizontal sheets
invading every pore of skin
of foliage
air saturated with moisture

thunder awakens me
eden is gone
perfection is gone
children are gone
you are gone

and I cry myself back to sleep…

iii desert island canto

only to awaken
with crashing surf
on a flat of scorching sand
my pale flesh perforated
by the tiny granules

I sit up against the base
of a solitary palm
survey my surroundings

I am clothed
in dilapidated levis
fine blond body hair
faded tattoos
and fiery angelic mane

my only possessions
moleskine journal
fat, primary school pencil
and a sliver of bamboo
from another dream
to sharpen its point

this island is ten feet in diameter

on the horizon all about me
I see mighty metropolises
civilization scant cubits away
yet I cannot swim

dreams that I struggle to remember
contain fantasies of her
my muse
flickers of rainforest
to be written in fat graphite forms

my rational mind foretells
of exorcism
by means of spontaneous prosody
inoculation for heartbreak and loneliness

so I write of all the things
that my cowardice will not bring
and in doing so
I lessen the yearning

my mind’s eye struggles
to picture her face…


iv canto poetico

she walks into the café
ear buds in place
book in hand
goes to the counter
orders a marshmallow mocha

I look up from reading
“bum on the loose”
a particularly brutal
bukowski piece
that sums up my thoughts
on giants of literature

as I peer across
the ten feet that separate us
I see that she is engrossed
in william carlos williams

methinks, poet’s poet
as I look over the precipice
into her dark eyes
and the stray tuft of hair
that darkens her forehead

she looks up at me
with a quizzical smile
arches an eyebrow
opens door into her world

I grasp for the right words
as visions of rainforests
and waterfalls
cloud my romantic mind

oh no, here I go again…

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Part Two- The Universe Expands

Part One – The Origin Of The Universe

After UNREQUITED I went on another extended hiatus from writing. I was still doing the performance poetry thing, dabbling with this and that. At around that time I also took a hiatus from work, ostensibly to write another book. That didn’t work out so well. But I did manage to do two important things that still color my work until this day. I took a drive down south for my first writer’s conference, KILLER NASHVILLE. There I met one of my all-time literary idols, Michael Connelly, had a sit-down critique with best-selling author and critic Hallie Ephron. Hallie, one of the literary Ephron sisters, gave me an insightful critique of the book idea that I was working on. I rubbed elbows with authors Chris Grabenstein, Mary Saums, Mike Jastrebski, Bill Travis and Don Bruns. It was a seminal experience for me and resonates to this day,

The second thing I did in 2007 was take my first trip out west to Colorado. A friend of mine moved out there the previous year. With time on my hands and money in my pockets, I went out there and spent a week. It was the great musical weekends of my life. My first night in Denver we went out to see a fantastic outlaw country band named The Railbenders. I’ve never been into country music, but they broke through my barrier (albeit slightly). The next night we took a limo out to Red Rocks to see the great Etta James, Al Green and BB King. Just wow! Then we hopped in the car and headed out to points west for the Aspen Snowmass Jazz Festival.

A funny thing happened at the end of this trip. I stayed for a day too long. Now I was familiar with this concept from trips to Vegas, but here I was in the American mecca of outdoor activity. My friend Matt and I were partied out, sitting on his living room couch with an extra twenty-four hours to kill without killing each other. In a seminal moment (at least it seems like one now) I said, “Let’s grab our cameras and head into the mountains. I’m sure we can find something cool to shoot.” We did just that and minutes later we were on I-70 heading toward the Continental Divide. It was on that westward journey that I saw two signs that would in large part shape the next novel.

The first sign was a large banner for the Tommyknocker Brewery. Now if you know your Brother T, you know I’m a huge fan of craft beers. I’ve even been known to brew a gallon or five myself. As we raced into the mountains the sign caught my eye and I took in the tiny town that surrounded it. The town was Idaho Springs, Colorado. It is the real-life model for the eponymous fictional town of JACKSON FALLS.

The second sign that I saw just a little way down the road was for St. Mary’s Glacier. The glacier is a focal point for that part of the Rockies. It’s visible all year around, but especially in the summer, when all the other snow has receded. We navigated our way to the trailhead and made a half-hearted attempt to climb to the summit. I told you we were partied out. The altitude was too much for this flatlander. St Mary’s Glacier became the image for the White Mountain glacier that sets the scene for Katie Darger and later for William Moss in the novel.

As happens with my writing, this was another case of fits and starts. It took a few years for me to really hit my stride on the story.  I came back to Ohio and got back into the pizza business. I stumbled along with my writing. I wrote the first forty pages of the story and set it aside. That was it for a long time. It was around this time that I started dabbling in social media. I reconnected with a lot of folks that I hadn’t thought about in twenty or more years. It’s funny that many of the people that I encountered from my earliest days were folks that I never really associated with way back when. The foremost and one of the more cherished of those was Lori Gum. She’d posted some compelling photos on Facebook and I’d commented with my positive impressions.

Lori is something of a renaissance woman. She spent twenty years in NYC working as a screenwriter before coming home to work in the family business. I can recall a few “getting to know you” messages back and forth. It seemed like we had a lot of common interests. We were simpatico. Funny, but I think the fact that we were both into women helped our friendship along. One day out of the blue I sent her the first forty pages of the story that would become JACKSON FALLS. It was one of those things that could have gone either way. Had she not responded, or worse, said it was shit, I probably would have never written the book. She gave me just enough encouragement for me to jumpstart the story. So I plunged headlong into another novel.

When my writing is on point and I’m in the flow, I can produce hundreds of pages in a rush. That’s what I did with JACKSON FALLS. I completed the first draft over the next couple of months and sent it on to Lori. My goal was to see if it was total shit or if I was on the right track. Lori surprised me. She invited me out for drinks with her and a friend. That night was the beginning of Periodisa Publishing. Over the next few months we crafted a book and released it to little acclaim and it nearly died at birth. That part of the story is not mine to tell. Let’s just say it was a learning experience for all of us.

I was sobered by the publishing experience and fallout of the book. It was about that time that I switched up careers. I went from the dark side of restaurant management to working for the forces of Progressive Politics. I dived headlong into my current job and began crisscrossing the country working on toss-up elections in swing states. My travels took me back to Colorado, where I was determined to write the sequel to JACKSON FALLS. Over the course of the next two years I was based in Denver, but traveling all over for election work. I managed to write 120 pages or so of the new book before it petered out. I went into hibernation like the bear that I am.

Fast forward to 2015. I was based in Greensboro, NC at the time, but again I was on another extended road trip. I worked on two huge election campaigns in the city of Philadelphia. In between, I relocated again, this time to Cleveland. Predictably, I started writing a novel about Greensboro and the Piedmont Triad. I caught a swell of inspiration and rode it until the next election road trip, when I headed back to Philly.

A note about my job. When I shift into election mode, I am so busy that the days can never be long enough. I find myself waking in the middle of the night wondering whether I scanned this document or sent that report. I’m juggling a team of 100 people with as many as ten new hires every day. It’s consuming and my creativity is nowhere to be found. When it’s over, I’m like “Holy Shit! I have all this time!” That’s when I get busy on my real job. Writing books.

In November of 2015 I came out of the election cycle with two goals. I was going to write another book and I was going to get the first two up on Kindle for the first time. Operation Kindle was easier than I thought. I created new Kindle and paperback editions of UNREQUITED and JACKSON FALLS in December. On December 13 I scrapped the first 135 pages of the book that has became FIONA’S RULES. I threw it out and started over. This time I was on point. I blasted out the first draft in two months.

I’m fortunate to have had a few literary idols who’ve given me words of encouragement over the years. One of those is my fellow Central Ohioan Craig McDonald, author of the great HECTOR LASSITER novels. The protagonist, Hector is a fictitious novelist who rubbed elbows with the giants of the early 20th Century including Ernest Hemingway. Hector is one of those larger than life guys who has epic adventures and writes all about them. But the main thing I get from Old Hec is the 4:00 AM writing session. For me, getting into a routine like that is like opening up a vein for a vampire. It was the key that turned on the flow to the tune of 1000-5000 words per day.

Another one of my hero-friends is Tim Hallinan. Tim has written three separate series of novels that are each unique in their cast and setting, yet incredible in their depth of character and intricate story lines, From Tim, I take two different writing keys, the first being that background music is important. Tim has a habit of giving a shout out to the artists that he listens to while he’s writing. I dig that. I get it. The other thing that I take from him is his vast universe of characters roaming the streets of Los Angeles and Bangkok. It inspired me to do the opposite.

My first (and unpublished) novel TRENCH bounces around the country like Forest Gump but is largely based in New York City. The second UNREQUITED, is also a New York City novel with many of the same characters, including Mick and Conor O’Brien. The third novel JACKSON FALLS is another globe trekking story, but the main elements take place in Colorado. The characters Johnny Turner and Maya Beauchamp in JACKSON FALLS also had cameo appearances in UNREQUITED.

Which brings us to FIONA’S RULES. It’s a novel of the Piedmont Triad region of North Carloina with a largely new cast of characters. Conor O’Brien, the protagonist of UNREQUITED is a second tier character in FIONA’S RULES. Act 2 takes place in Denver. Dani Darger and DJ Standifer from JACKSON FALLS also play bit parts in this little drama. It’s a lot of fun weaving the characters from three different worlds into a vast universe of possibilities.

The next novel, code named THE OLD BOY NETWORK is already in full swing. Suffice it to say that you’ll get a full dose of the O’Brien boys and many of the other UNREQUITED characters. In the meantime, happy reading…

FIONA’S RULES is set for publication in June of 2016.

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The Origin of the Universe (Part One)

The Origin of the Universe (Part One)

It started with a dream. I think it was back in 1991. As with most dreams, the waking came with jagged shards of consciousness. The theme, if you can call it that, was a small boy of perhaps ten riding in the back seat on a car. They were returning from a little league baseball tournament in which he was the star. As the car crested the top of a bridge, the father, bedazzled by a day in the sun and perhaps a little day drinking, crashes the car into the bridge abutment. The dream was so lucid that I woke in a frenzy. I had one lasting image of the boy. His face was destroyed and had a thick “trench” of blood running from temple to cheek. I found a post-it note and wrote down the word Trench. That’s it.

Fast forward to 1996. It was one of those “perfect moments in time.” I had just started a new job and one of the main benefits was an interest free loan to buy my first computer. Being the transient that I am, I was moving to another new apartment. I was unpacking and opened one of my dozens of shoe boxes, my preferred filing system, and out popped this random post-it note with the single word “Trench” written on it. I set up the computer, loaded Microsoft Word, warmed up the printer and started typing. The story took place in New York City. The main character was Mickey O’Brien, named after the great Mickey Mantle by his Yankees fan father. He was my first “superhero.” That was the start of my fictional universe.

In 10 weeks I had a 400 page, 100,000-word novel. I also had the writer’s version of post-partum depression. I didn’t write another word for five years.

 

.front coming June 2016

 

Fast forward to 2001. 9/11/2001 to be precise. I was starting another new job (a frequent theme of mine) and I was camped out for the summer in Midtown Manhattan learning how to run a new restaurant concept. I was staying in a hotel at 31st and Broadway, or about three miles as the crow flies from the World Trade Center. I got to see first-hand the sights, sounds and especially smells of 9/11. I stuck around New York for another seven months before I ultimately returned to Ohio. Once home, I formed the Write Klub writer’s group with a few friends from all walks of the creative life. We met in a bar over drinks and we pushed ourselves with words. I miss those days. Keeping up with the Heslops , Hickman-Romines and Courtads of the world forced me to keep my writing fresh and nimble. Around that time I also did a two-year turn as the host of an open mic poetry night at Kafe Kerouac. But I was doing everything but writing books.

It took a few years before the next novel had gestated enough to begin the writing process. The main character was a damaged police detective by the name of Conor O’Brien. You guessed it, Conor is Mickey’s little brother. He cameoed as a baby in the first book. In true soap opera fashion, Conor went from baby and toddler to 32-year-old in the space of one book. Don’t worry, the timeline is resolute and the numbers work. The resulting story, UNREQUITED, was a serial killer thriller released in 2006. It is also a love letter to New York City.

Unrequited

 

Part Two- The Universe Expands

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On The 24 Hour News Cycle & Responsibility

It’s a conversation that I remember well. We were sitting in an Irish Pub on the Upper East Side, NYC. It must have been late 2003, because my friend Pete was still trying to buck the new smoking ban. As a perennial non-smoker and law-bender, I could see both sides of it. I hated cigarettes with a passion, but I supported Pete’s right to smoke one when and where he wanted. But then again, I was that guy who refused to wear a seatbelt because it infringed on my civil liberties.

“You know what I love about living in New York?” He said.

“It’s the greatest city in the world?” I replied. I was a visitor. I’d lived in the City from 2001 to 2002 and moved back to Ohio for a variety of reasons, 9/11 first and foremost.

“Well, there’s that. But what I love about the city is the endless possibilities. I love the fact that if I need anything at all I can get it at any time, day or night. If I need a three-piece suit at 4:30 in the morning, I can find a tailor to make it for me. Anything at all.”

“Yes, that is truly amazing.” I said. I’d always said that New York City was the hub of the wheel that makes the world go around. That the closer that you are to the hub, the faster the wheel spins. And that the farther you are from the hub, say Cicily, Alaska, the slower the wheel spins. It goes so slow that you might not be attached to the wheel at all. Just ask Dr. Joel Fleischman and he’ll confirm that for you.

New York City was the 24-hour cycle of life. When you live there you feel like you are ahead of everyone else. Be it news, fashion, music, movies, you name it; everything seems to get to you first. I treasure my time there and I probably glamorize it a little too much. But for me it was like being plugged into the Matrix. But as with all other things concerning instant gratification, some of it will be caviar and some of it will be shit.

I’ve always been a writer. In my wildest dreams I was an investigative journalist breaking big cases like Woodward and Bernstein in All the Presidents Men. I even flirted with the Carter Journalism Center at NYU, but I was never an academic and I was certainly never someone who could string together other people’s words. For me, the only avenue for creativity was long-form fiction and opinion essays. But I never lost that interest in the craft and form of investigative journalism. That’s why the advent of the 24-hour news cycle is so distressing to me.

For hundreds of years, Journalism was a series of lovingly articulated to stories crafted at breakneck speed. Competitors in any city could be found trying to break the next big story, to get the Scoop. The scoop has always been an important part of journalism, a trophy similar to a great rack of antlers hanging on the wall in the Man Cave. Careers were made and broken with the scoop of The Next Big News Story.

And then about thirty years ago we started to see a change in the way news stories were gathered and shared with the public. In the old days most stories were broken in only a few of different ways. There was the newspaper, the bastion of the serious reporter. Depending on the paper, there were one or more additions throughout the day. The news junkie knew for example that he could be at a certain newsstand at a certain time to get the news before anyone else. Next there was the local TV news, which was shown three to four times per day with the occasional news break for the huge news stories like an assassination or the selection of a new Pope. For national news the Networks had a similar timetable for folks to tune in and watch Cronkite and Jennings. Lastly there was news radio, which had the most flexibility but also the lowest circulation and listenership.

That was it. Local newspapers, TV and radio were your options for news dissemination.

And then came the early 80’s and the nationalizing of news. A couple of things happened simultaneously early in that decade. A national newspaper, the USA Today came out. It was the first time that we had a widely available news source that wasn’t localized or regionalized. At the same time cable TV became widely available. There’d been regional stations like TBS and WGN for decades. Ted Turner parlayed his TBS empire into CNN and then Headline News. For the first time you could turn on your TV at any time of the day or night and get all the important headlines every twenty minutes with constant updates. The Scoop Game was turned upside down.

It was the beginning of the marginalization of professional journalism.

Remember that three-piece suit at 4:30 in the morning? Well now we were talking news, sports, sitcoms, movies and porn any time of the day or night 24/7/365. Who needs to go meet the newspaper truck at 4:00 in the morning if you can get all the headlines at 2:00?

Which brings the Internet in the 90’s. In the years between the Cable age and the Internet age there were a few developments that were precursors to what I’ll call the Social Media Age. In the earliest days of the Internet there were text based services called bulletin boards and list serves that catered to people of similar interests. They weren’t widely used, but for the ones in the know, they were fiercely loyal. The users knew each other as well as today’s Tweeple know each other. Probably better. And the veracity of their credibility was on display on a daily basis among their peers. If they fucked up, they would no longer be trusted. They had to post with integrity in order to keep their audience.

In the past decade, the dissemination of news and information has gotten ever faster and harder to verify. The cable news outlets have become highly competitive not only with their news and their scoops but also with their ideology and messaging behind it. A lot of editorial opinion was suddenly being passed off as news. And the American people gorged themselves on it. We became fat with knowledge that was obtained not through traditional journalism, but increasing things that were reserved for the op-ed page.

And the competition for the scoops and the first sound bite bragging rights lead to some legendary fuckups. Does anyone remember Richard Jewel, the falsely accused Olympic Park Bomber? And do you remember Jon King and Wolf Blitzer falsely reporting that the Boston Marathon Bombers were dark men wearing hoodies? Turns out they were white men wearing backwards baseball caps. In 2012 CNN and Fox News tried to out-scoop each other by reporting that the Supreme Court had ruled against Obamacare. What a day that was.

Which brings me to the subject of this rant. With the advent and broad subscriber-ship to Facebook and especially Twitter, the ever-increasing pace of the news cycle has reached the speed of light. People, myself included, sit on their phones and computers refreshing the page over and over again until they get the news they are looking for, be it a ball score or and election result. The talk radio and television streams have scrambled to stay ahead of the curve. As soon as a story is broken there are a thousand experts ready to chime in on it, often times without the full details.

The speed of this is problematic. I’ll site a recent example of what I am talking about. Thrice in the past eight months, the Cleveland Browns wide receiver Josh Gordon has found himself in trouble for substance abuse. Each time a “trusted expert” has broken the “story” based on a leak from an unspecified “source.” Immediately, almost at the speed of light, panels of experts are on the scene pontificating about Gordon’s “addiction,” his “alcoholism” and the “tough love” that the team needs to give him to set him straight. Don’t get me wrong, Josh has been fucking up. He admits that. But it’s no excuse for slander.

Cris Carter, noted addiction specialist, famously stated: “We are dealing with addiction here.”

Cris, 16 ng/ml positive test of marijuana one time over 180 drug tests ≠ drug addiction. If Josh was addicted, he would have failed more that 1/180.

Charles Barkley, noted expert on alcoholism, famously stated: “I have a brother who’s dead … Josh Gordon is going to die if he keeps going on this road he’s going.”

Chuck, 2 beers and two cocktails = failed alcohol test, but over the course of six months of testing ≠ alcoholism

The bottom line is that while Cris Carter and Charles Barkley are entitled to their opinions, the statements that they made are borderline slanderous. “Experts” like these will very rarely apologize for their opinions, and the public, accepting it as news, will never forget. Cris and Chuck, I love you guys, but I wish you would hold your comments until the facts are in. When you make blanket assumptions without fact, you not only sound ignorant, but you make the public more ignorant.

And that, in a nutshell, is the problem with 140-character journalism. People desperate for the latest news see a tweet from a noted “expert” and accept it as gospel. Whether the tweet is about bombings, ethics charges, drug tests or plagiarism, if you are wrong, you are still painting someone with an indelible mark that cannot be removed. Getting it right is more important than getting it first. Get The Facts. Report Responsibly. Respect Your Fellow Humans.

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Liberals Have Ruined America

(and it’s not the way you think)

I breathe politics. Those of you connected with me through social media know this. The vast majority of my contacts, both pro and con, have come through my politics. I’ve had spirited debates on a variety of topics over the years. I’ve commiserated on the losses and gloated on the wins. I’ve lamented bad decisions from the Left and the Right. I’ve offered my advice to everyone from the President of the United States to the Denver City Council. After twenty-plus years of being active in politics as a layman and as a professional I have come to one startling conclusion. Liberals have ruined America.

I’m a Progressive. You know this. It’s likely the first thing we talked about when I met you (unless we were fighting on the playground or sharing the nozzle at a keg party in high school). I wear it on my sleeve. I’m a Progressive when I go to bed and I’m a Progressive when I wake up. With that being said, I have never self-identified as a Liberal. I am a Progressive. Liberalism has always been a four-letter word to me. I’ve gone so far as to say the words “I Hate Liberals.” They annoy me to no end. That’s why I shout it to the rafters. Liberals have ruined America.

Over the course of the last four years I have traveled America talking to folks about politics. If you live in a vast portion of Central Ohio there’s a good chance that I’ve knocked on your door. If you live in sections of Colorado, Indiana, Illinois, Massachusetts or North Carolina you have probably talked to one (or more) of my people. I’ve talked to thousands of people about what matters most to them. I’ve been able to draw a conclusion. No matter which way they lean, most people want the same things out of life. A job that with a company that we can be proud of; A good job with a future, benefits and retirement at the end of our career; A safe place to live for the family; A solid education; Access to quality health care; A fair chance to get ahead. These things don’t seem like a lot to ask for. We work hard. We get rewarded. Everybody wins. The disconnect comes when we start mixing ideology into the equation.

America has become a binary, dare I say bi-polar, society. Everything is this or that. Right or Left, Black or White, Gay or Straight, Male or Female, Liberal or Conservative. I could keep going, but you get the point. We have lost out ability to see the shades of gray that exist between every absolute. There is common ground in every single relationship and conversation. Our politicians deal in absolutes. They would rather draw a line in the sand between their core issue than find the common ground that we as their constituents share and live on a daily basis. The issues that we all care about. The basic needs required to pursue the American Dream of life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. Instead we get bogged down on issues like God, Guns and Gays. They are wedge issues that divide rather than unite us. Which explains why a voter would cast a ballot for politicians who proudly stand for profits over people. They would rather have Congressman X beat Congresswoman Y because Congressman X will protect their right to bear assault rifles. Or stop gay marriage. Or prevent abortions. Or allow prayers in schools…

“But Terry, I think I read you wrong. You said that Liberals have ruined America. Didn’t you mean that the three G’s crowd was responsible for our downfall?”

Patience, Grasshopper. I am getting to that.

I have no problem with folks who go and vote their conscience on election day. If you choose to believe that the President is going to take away your guns, or that abortion is murder, or that gays are sending America (literally) to hell like some modern day Sodom and Gomorrah, by all means get out and cast your vote. That is your prerogative, your duty to your country. When Americans participate in the political process the country is stronger and more resilient. And that, in a nutshell is why I say That Liberals have ruined America.

If the ideologies of the Right and the Left are polar opposites, so too is the application of said ideologies. It is not unusual in a primary election to say eight Republicans on stage ripping each other limb from limb over the minutest of ideological differences or voting record. That Candidate A once voted to expand Medicaid in their state, or that Candidate B voted against Keystone XL becomes a black mark and makes them unelectable. They fight to see who is the most conservative of a bunch of conservatives. We watch and we laugh at the idiocy of it all. Once the Battle Royale is over and the bloody swords are put back in theirs sheaths, everything turns hunky dory and they all get behind the victor. In November they take their resolve to the voting booth to elect their candidate. The Republicans become the “Walmart” of campaigns and they turn all of their bloody swords on their “communist” opponent. Everybody is welcome in the tent.

In the meantime, in between all of our laughter and jeering, the Democratic Party is also debating on their nomination. The process is much the same. Knives are sharpened to cut away at each candidate’s liberal armor. They debate on who is the most liberal and force each other to take stands on reproductive rights, gay marriage, environmental protections, minimum wage, labor rights, health care and a variety of other issues. Their voting records are laid bare for all to see. They parade these platforms through all of the primary states and harp constantly on their differences. They nominate and winner and move on to the general election, chattering about their “extremist” opponent.

Pretty similar process, right?

Unfortunately, that’s where the similarity ends. When the Democratic Party goes into general election mode they become the “Small Business Saturday” of election campaigns. Everybody is still shopping, just not at the same store. With their Liberal credentials laid out for all to see, you’d think the faithful would fall in line and vote the party ticket. After all, the candidate likely represents the better option on the vast majority of issues that are important to you. You’d think wrong. Liberals tend to fixate on these credentials to the point of distraction. If the candidate is not strong enough on my one core issue, say Income Equality, then my feelings get hurt. I may decide to sit this election out. This is the trap that we fall into over and over again.

Case in point: I have a friend in Pennsylvania whose one big issue is fracking. Over the years he has become increasingly disenchanted with Barack Obama’s open support, dare I say cheerleading, of fracking. It became unthinkable for my friend to vote for the President. I can’t speak to my friend’s voting record. I’m hoping that he voted Green instead of Romney, because there is no way that Romney would be better for the anti-fracking crowd than Obama. This gets right to us to my first point.

The last seven years should have been a boom market for Democrats. The President won by a landslide in 2008 and by a slightly lesser margin in 2012. The Republicans when on the attack before he ever swore the oath of office. They started talking about impeachment before he had a chance to make an impeachable offense. They boasted that they would block everything that he tried to accomplish. Even though they were the minority in both houses. This should have been a rallying cry for the Left. Instead, our liberal politicians started abandoning ship almost as quickly. They became the Small Business Saturday of Government. So much more Progress could have been made if they’d worked together instead of arguing about what to work on first. We could have had Single Payer Healthcare, a higher minimum wage and signed off on all of the projects that the stimulus was designed to pay for. Instead we got bunk. But that’s the Liberal Way.

Most recently I’ve been campaigning down in North Carolina to save the Senate from the Republican takeover. If you follow the news you know that I failed miserably. This despite the fact that all of the people that I talked to seem to hate Thom Tillis with impunity. Despite the fact that registered Democrats outnumber registered Republicans by 700,000, Ms. Hagan still lost to Tillis by 47,000 votes. Not only have Liberals ruined America, they have surely ruined the great state of North Carolina. Their crime? I’m glad you asked. If the candidate doesn’t fit their profile perfectly and exactly, they refuse to vote for them.

The case against Kay Hagan is a familiar one. In her campaign ads she called herself “The most moderate member of the Senate.” Liberals do not want to hear that. Liberals want a firebrand, someone who will dash as far to the left as possible and then tear down the walls and go even farther. They want someone who will go to battle to defend the environment, to protect reproductive rights, to expand Medicaid, to raise the minimum wage as high as possible, to give amnesty to the Dreamers and their families. Not only that, but they want their core issue to be Kay Hagan’s core issue and first priority. Kay Hagan did none of that in her six years in office. In fact she did the opposite in most of those instances, went for business time and time again instead of representing the base that got her there in the first place. She did nothing to inspire the Liberals of North Carolina to get out and vote for her. Not even the constant Tillis ads tying her to President Obama could help her win the Liberal vote. The majority of the Senators that lost on this election day did so because they distanced themselves from the President. And he’s the one that got them there in the first place when he blew out the walls of the tent and brought everyone inside.

Even though Kay Hagan was bad on “insert issue here,” she was still better than Tillis on every one of the Liberal core issues. Every time a Liberal says, “She didn’t vote against fracking, so I’m not voting for him,” they are disregarding them plethora of other issues which differentiate the Right from the Left. Just because your congresswoman didn’t stand in from of the House and speechify on Gay Marriage, it doesn’t mean that he is not better than his challenger on every other issue. This is what I mean when I talk about the Boutique Liberal. If a Democrat is not displaying at the “Worker’s Rights Boutique,” then Organized Labor rank and file will turn their backs on him. They do this even though they know he is better on every other issue, every other boutique, in Liberal issues mall.

Don’t give me the lesser of two evils defense.

The lesser of two evils assumes that neither candidate represents you on either of the issues. If a Democrat doesn’t represent you on any of the issues then you should be voting Republican any way. If you choose to abstain from voting in any election you invite the worst possible outcome. You can’t complain about one party dominating a government if you didn’t participate. Sure you can bitch, but I’m not listening. You are dead to me. Or at least your opinions are.

Conservatives don’t give a rat’s ass about the lesser of two evils. They hold their nose and march to the polls to vote for weak candidates like Mitt Romney and Sarah Palin and George Bush. Mitt Romney told the American People that he didn’t care about the bottom 47 percent of the people at all, yet 61,000,000 people, or 47 percent, voted for him. That’s how the Republicans swept to victory in 2010 and 2014. The Conservatives hopped on the Walmart bus and drove to the polls while the Liberals were still window shopping at the Boutique Mall. We need to be Progressives and become the Costco of political parties.

And that’s how Liberals have ruined America.

Stay tuned for the sequel 😉

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Brother Pollyanna?

Maybe I’m a Pollyanna, but I have a dream…

a) a moratorium on police and national guard showing up in riot gear and tanks Every time a weapon is discharged the spotlight gets brighter.
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b) a moratorium on burning, looting and pillaging. Every time a building burns the pulses race faster and the response gets stronger. (the same applies above).
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c) the right to free speech and assembly. If I disagree with a government action or policy I have the right to peaceably protest. Our country is built on that.
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d) the protection of people and property. Burning down a neighborhood doesn’t benefit anyone, but decidedly hurts its residents and small business owners.

I understand that the cops put their lives on the line during every single shift. They deserve the option to protect themselves within reason and within the law.

I also understand that people want the guarantee of life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. All of these things are under attack by our own government. There’s a reason we call it a “police state” and it has little to do with the actual police. The 12 year-old with bb gun notwithstanding, unarmed people should never have to fear for their lives.

The two are not mutually exclusive

It’s common sense folks. Two wrongs will never, ever make a right. We need to get along to GET ALONG! We have to stop this race towards dystopia.

I’d say the same goes for all the foreign skirmishes around the world, but that’s a dream for another day.

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Allegory

Thought of the day: Has America become the existential model of Plato’s Allegory of the Cave?

We have smart phones and video games, restaurant and grocery delivery, broadband and Amazon, 24 hour sports and news, iPads and iPods, Satellite TV and Radio, the Biebs and Miley, Twitter and Facebook. What incentive does the average American have to get out of the house?

Why form your own opinions when Bill O’Reilly, Jon Stewart, Rush Limbaugh, Rachel Maddow and Joe Scarborough can tell you how to think?

Oh how the times have changed since the 60’s when people took to the streets to stop racism, to stop mountain-top removal and forest clear-cutting, to stop a war. We lament the loss of will when it comes to activism. Is there a correlation between the aforementioned distractions and this loss of will?

Indeed we do. One only needs to look at the Arab Spring and the developing world to see true change is possible (for better or worse). When people in the developing world get truly angry the hit the streets and don’t leave. Then American version of this is the one-hour protest and the letter to the editor. The we pick up the dry cleaning and head out to happy hour. Our motives may be pure, but our will is weak when it come to showing up and sticking it out for the long haul.

Until Americans put down the remote control, unplug the PC and turn off the smart phone. Until we get outside in the streets and in the halls of government. Until we see what’s going on. Until we ascertain the true meaning of things, we are all the very model of that prisoner in a cave that Plato was talking about, watching shadows on the wall, and drinking the Koolaid of partisan ideology.

Better duck, it’s time for Link to set off the EMP and wipe out the machine world. I’d fix it myself, but I’m not THE ONE. I’m just the 37th Most Interesting Ginger in the World.

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Requiem Of The American Worker

Here we are, fifty years removed from Dr. Martin Luther King’s “I Have a Dream” speech, and if anything times have gotten ever tougher for the American worker. Wages remain stagnant, even as corporate profits soar and the stock markets show near record highs after the deep plunge they took six years ago. Unemployment is still hovering at seven percent with countless others having retired and/or given up. There are many reasons why we are having a hard time getting everyone to work and keeping them there.  To name a few, we have the off-shoring of jobs to save on labor costs, automation and higher productivity meaning more production for less labor hours, State and federal budget cuts causing layoffs and furloughs of public workers and mega-corporations buying up the competition or driving them out of business.

Organized Labor, of which I am a part of, has taken a big hit as well. Union density has gone from a high of 35% in 1954 down to its current 12% in 2013.  Conventional wisdom says that “unions were a great idea back in the day” but they’re unnecessary now. This is wrong-headed thinking perpetuated by Capitalist think-tanks that are still pushing the “trickle down” policies of Reaganomics from thirty years ago. If the economy “trickles down” from the “job creators” then why has CEO pay grown by 725% since 1978 while worker pay grew 5.7% over the same time period. (Economic Policy Institute, http://www.epi.org/publication/ib331-ceo-pay-top-1-percent/) Seems like a few more nickels could have trickled down. This roughly coincides with the decline of union power in this nation. No voice in the workplace leads to economic disparity on a grand scale.

Labor is not without some blame in the equation. We have seen corruption that disillusioned the populace, turned people off. We have overreached in contract negotiations when we should have compromised. We have been arrogant when we should have been innovative. We’ve excluded and mistreated our non-union brothers when we should have embraced them. We’ve all heard the cliché of “three supervisors watching one guy work.” We’ve singlemindedly supported a Democratic Party that has often been weak and ineffectual on Labor issues. All of these things have combined to kill our public image.

Corporations have moved in to consolidate their power in the absence of unions. The Corporate Welfare State has since spiraled out of control. In 2006 corporate subsidies outstripped aid to children and families to the tune of 50%. In other words, corporations received $93 billion while aid to needy children and families was $59 billion. (Think By Numbers, http://thinkbynumbers.org/government-spending/corporate-welfare/corporate-welfare-statistics-vs-social-welfare-statistics/) Our tax dollars are subsidizing corporations to take our jobs and move them overseas. They are being used to help carpet-bagging companies to move from state to state or even city to city looking for the best deal. Is this what we call a “free market economy”? Sounds more like a free ride for these CEO’s and shareholders.

Corporate interests have rallied to the aid of the Republican Party, often citing the Labor’s “influence” on the Democrats. Groups like the Heritage Foundation, Americans For Prosperity and even the U.S. Chamber of Commerce spend millions of dollars supporting anti-union candidates and lobbying in Washington for anti-worker legislation. This legislation is often written by the American Legislative Exchange Council (ALEC) and crafted for the very businesses that the bills are supposed to regulate. ALEC has a vast stable of elected officials who they subsidize to do their work in Washington and in state capitals across the country. (Sourcewatch, http://www.sourcewatch.org/index.php/American_Legislative_Exchange_Council)

Even celebrities feel the need to get into the mix. In a famous press conference, “Papa” John Schlatter, one of the most famous entrepreneurs in our country’s history, stated that the implementation of Obamacare would force his company to raise prices by 10-14 cents per pizza. Forbes Magazine calculated the costs at roughly 4 cents per pie. (Forbes Magazine, http://www.upi.com/Health_News/2012/11/14/Forbes-Papa-Johns-ACA-cost-5-cents/UPI-54101352940627/  ) He hasn’t publicly come out on his take on raising the minimum wage. Maybe he learned his lesson.

So, is this really the requiem of the American Worker? Are we fading off into the sunset like old cowboys on horses being replaced by the automobile. I think not. Instead of being fighting a losing battle we are rising from the ashes like a phoenix on the back of New Labor. Wal-Mart, whose ownership is among the richest people in America, are seeing their workers stand up for a living wage and benefits on the job. Fast food workers across the country are rising up for better working conditions and quality of life. Lobstermen in Maine have formed a union for the first time. California has seen unionized “Gentlemen’s clubs.” Hotel workers, home health care professionals, taxi and shuttle bus drivers have been organizing across the country for a better way of life.

So what’s the answer? A new economy that allows us all to prosper together. Instead of a minimum wage create a living wage. As wages rise, so will spending, saving and the GDP. Redistribute the spoils of our labor to the producers of those spoils. Like it used to be when America was the economic engine of the world. It’s going to happen, it’s just a matter of what form the (r)evolution takes. Solidarity!

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Brother T’s Law Of Reciprocity

“Our actions are like ships which we may watch set out to sea, and not know when or with what cargo they will return to port.” ― Iris Murdoch, The Bell

At the end of the day, the Golden Rule is called the Golden Rule for a reason – do unto others as you would have done to you. – Chad Kroeger

I was in a bad mood. Back in those days I was always in a bad mood. I walked into the office and saw “Donna’ sitting at her desk. I leaned into her cubicle and said. “Hey, do you have those deposits done yet.”

Without turning to me or saying a word, she handed me a folder that contained the documents that I was asking for. I turned and walked out without a “thank you” or a “go to hell.”

I was about twenty feet down the hallway when I heard footsteps coming behind me and fast. A hand touched my elbow and I spun around. It was the girl that I was dating at the time. She’d witnessed the last exchange. She said, “”What do you think you’re doing?”

“What do you mean?”

“Back there with “Donna.””

“Taking care of business. That’s what I do. Take care of business.”

“That was completely wrong.”

“What do you mean?” I was genuinely perplexed.

“In my culture we would never have an encounter like that. You walk in. You say hello. You ask after the person’s health and family. And then you take care of business. “Donna’s” father just had a heart attack and you didn’t even bother to ask. You have to consider people’s feelings!”

It was like a slap in the face. Now those of you who know me know that I am the very definition of being socially awkward. I have gotten better over these last fifteen years, but I’ll never be the belle of the ball. My eyes were opened that day, so much so that I was forever changed by the encounter. The following day I went back into that office to see “Donna.”

“Hi Donna, I heard about your dad. Is he doing okay?”

She looked at me like I had just stepped off a spaceship, complete with green skin and antennae. “Yeah. thanks for asking.”

I walked out of there feeling pretty good about myself. I carried that feeling until the following day, when another coworker told me a funny story. “So, Donna said that you were really nice to her yesterday.” I smiled. “She also said you were faking it.” I was flabbergasted. It would have been the easiest thing in the world for me to blame her for being harsh and unforgiving, but indeed it was I who’d built up these bad feelings in her over the years. She was perfectly justified. My negative energy had killed any chance that we ever had to be friends.

I was bitten by reciprocity.

I was a raving lunatic back in those days. I was working too much, drinking too much and was dumped by the aforementioned girlfriend. The icing on the cake was when I got fired from the job for “just not caring” anymore. I was just not caring to the tune of 65 hours per week. In retrospect it was one of the best days of my life. I moved on through a succession of General Manager jobs in restaurants. With each new job I got a little bit softer, a little more empathetic. Finally, after twelve years of mind-numbing soul-crushing work. I was ejecting into the real world like Neo being unplugged from the Matrix for the first time.

I took that “Donna” lesson with me.

I’ve become the antithesis of that raving lunatic, so much so that my most recent girlfriend said, “No one could be that happy all the time.”

To set the record straight, she was right, I am not that happy all the time. But I am that cheerful all of the time. I choose to be cheerful because I’ve noticed that when I’m in a good mood it puts everyone else in a good mood, which in turn makes me happy.And it also allows me to keep any bad vibrations at bay.

I wrap my arms around reciprocity.

We all have the ability to be creators. We create every encounter that we have with another human being. We can shape it into a thing of beauty or make it as ugly as we want. If I spend 15 seconds with a complete stranger, does it cost me anything more to make it a beautiful 15 seconds? Heck no! In fact, I can gain spiritual currency in every exchange. When I get a smile out of the deal, I win. When someone says thank you, I win. When someone gains some satisfaction, I win. If I do the right thing in every situation, I always win.

This is my Law of Reciprocity.

Do something beautiful without expectation, it will bounce right back at you.

Do something evil and spiteful, be prepared for the whipping post.

Karma gonna get you, baby.

I often think back to that day 15 years ago and the lesson that I learned. It would have cost me nothing to do the right thing, yet I chose to “take care of business.” Now I hope that everyone throws their arms around Reciprocity. All these good vibrations bouncing around make the world a kinder gentler place.

Namaste, Your Brother T

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Tao vs Tao

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The Middle Way Vs. The Way of the Artist

“First of all, Buddhism is neither pessimistic nor optimistic. If anything at all, it is realistic, for it takes a realistic view of life and the world. It looks at things objectively. It does not falsely lull you into living in a fool’s paradise, nor does it frighten and agonize you with all kinds of imaginary fears and sins. It tells you exactly and objectively what you are and what the world around you is, and shows you the way to perfect freedom, peace, tranquility and happiness.” – Walpola Rahula, What The Buddha Taught

“And so it goes…” Kurt Vonnegut, Slaughterhouse Five

“You can do anything you set your mind to.” Benjamin Franklin

The world is a vast playground where virtually anything is possible, yet from the day we are born our options are limited and stunted. Our parents, however well-meaning like to put us in a box, do what is best for us, help us be all that we can be. Later, as we start school, our teachers do the same thing. They begin teaching to the standardized test, teaching us what every kid needs to know to be successful in the world. In short, we make our kids what we want them to be rather than allowing them to become who they want to be.

I don’t claim to be an expert on any subject. I’m really more of an unused mind that is playing catch-up in my dotage. I’m an under-educated underachiever who is finally using my brainy superpowers for the forces of good. Or rather the all-consuming power of Art. By the way, what happened to Art?

I can hear you thinking (cue lab rats running on a little wheels), “What are you talking about Brother T? There is art all around you. Open your eyes, Brother T.”

True, you can turn on the radio and hear music or go to the library and grab a book that will make you laugh AND make you cry. Every city has art galleries and museums where you can see stunning works of visual art. Drive through any town and you’ll see architecture, parks and landscaping that will blow your mind. Listen to a street poet or read a poetry book. Go to a popular restaurant and you might see a stunning recipe plated like a masterpiece. Pop into your local brew pub and drink a work of Art. Stop by the indie record store and see window art and posters for rock shows. Go to a town with a thriving bicycle scene and be amazed by the beauty of the handcrafted bicycles. I could go on and on, but I think you get the point. There is ART everywhere that you look. Right now. “Open your eyes., Brother T.”

My eyes are wide open. My heart fills with joy every time I rub up against any one of those examples that I just rattled off. Right now there is ART everywhere I turn my head.

But where will it be tomorrow.

I’ll bet when you read the title of this piece you thought it was going to be a treatise on Eastern mysticism and spirituality. It is. Nothing is more spiritual (to me) than ART. For thousands of years the standard bearers of the Eastern religions have been preaching the Middle Way as the way to find enlightenment.

Buddha said “The middle way avoids both these extremes; it gives vision, knowledge, and leads to peace, direct acquaintance, to discovery, to nirvana.”

Indeed, the Middle Way can be the source of enlightenment if all I want to do is to know my own mind (a frightening prospect, if you’re asking). A life of knowing the ecstasy of emotional highs and the crash and burn of the lowest lows are what makes me tick. When I’m too happy for too long I can almost feel the gears within me start to grind to a halt. I have hurt many people and ruined many relationships because of it. Does that mean I should stop seeking the ultimate happiness that life can give? Should I settle for a life of safety and mediocrity? Might as well shoot me now.

What I’m talking about here is the Western version of the Middle Way, a version also fraught with mediocrity. For many people, probably the majority of people in the world, the Middle Way is probably a perfectly acceptable way of living a good life. Born into a happy home, work hard in school, get a degree in an acceptable profession, find a job in said profession, marry within your social class, buy a house, pop out a few kids and retire in Florida. Sound good?

Sounds like hell to me. Which is probably why I am hopelessly and forever single, a status in which I am beyond redemption.

Not every kid that is born in 2013 is going to want to follow the Middle Way blueprint that I just laid out. There are kids who are going to want to write and paint, play music and cook, design buildings and parks. The embracing of the Western Middle Way has systematically taken away these alternatives for generations of our kids. Music and art classes have disappeared from our schools. Every kid is thrown into a box, shaken vigorously, and then expected to come out the same. Expected to pass THE TEST. The brighter kids can’t help but be bored, the average kids make out like bandits and kids at the bottom of the curve come out alienated and miserable. Kids who are too lively, who don’t fit the cookie cutter, are brought down with pharmaceuticals and counselling until they can’t touch those emotions without self-medicating. Is it any wonder that many of the world’s most creative minds of the last century have died well before their time.

What we need is a system that allows each child to be celebrated as the individual that they are without the stereotype of what they should be. So what if little Johnny wants to be a hairdresser or little Janey wants to work on motorcycles. Their happiness should be valued as much if not more than their future financial viability. This is where the government of Bhutan has surged ahead of the rest of the world. Instead of a Gross Domestic Product they calculate a Gross National Happiness. This is the Way of the Artist.

Creativity can be a curse. It can be the bane of our existence. But the absence of creativity makes for a world not worth living. There is something to be said for the Middle Way, but I’ll spend my nickel on the Way of the Artist. Thanks for listening.

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